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Useless
Sigh 😔 I know I’m trippin’, but I feel completely useless rn. 😣 Who I am, who I want to be, are of no use to my reality. 😧 My reality needs fear 😱 and conformity 🥸 and pressure, 🔧 to create progress and benefits. 🤖 I need peace 😇 and divine order 💫 and…
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Blue pill infomercial
I took the blue pill. This is my story. . . . I wake up at 2 am on a Friday night. Another Friday to wallow in my loneliness. I flip through the rolladex of my memory. To find all the humiliating moments and piece them together like a jigsaw puzzle. . . . The…
anxiety, bad feelings, blue pill, Consciousness, darkness, dreams, evil, fall, God, good feelings, hope, life, love, mental health, mentality, mindset, mistakes, night, pain, poetry, reality, sad, soul, strange, The machine, the matrix, them, they, us, waking up -
An Inconvenient Life
Man. Life is a mystery. A history we repeat over and over. I’m so fucking tired of the machine, the wheel and the grind. Shit. God is to blame. A Legend we fear, Century after Century. No one ever asked me how I felt about coming back to this God-awful play. Act. To Live, is…
Consciousness, God, hope, pain, reality, sad, Self, society, The machine, the matrix, waking up, what’s next, why, words, Worry, you -
EVERYDAY IM HUSTLING
1/24/24 What is life like for a poor, homeless, writer living in the greatest city in the world?? IT SUCKS! TF? Honestly, what stories could one really expect from a poor, homeless American WITH a college degree!? What luxuries could I afford? Not much. Food cost, Alcohol cost, Weed costs (it’s legal now, so shut…
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God is a woman. I am her.
I am chosen. Before I was born, it was manifested that I would lead, like Moses. That I would dream, like Joseph. But what happened? I grew up. I started to believe that I was a follower. That I should follow others towards God’s heart. That, to be close to God, I had to follow…